time is ticking faster, aey?
In those two weeks holiday I got, I went back to Indonesia.
It was driving me ridiculously busy yet full filling my happiness.
yes, the happiness I've been waiting for was just a temporary enjoyment.
I was too busy building up plans for my future life. I went to Malaysia to check out 4 universities in one day :). Hopefully, it does worth even just as experiences.
I just got one day for having my nostalgic moment with my friends. However, I got several days having great time together with my cousins and relatives in Bandung. Too bad I was sick in the last days of the holiday, so I didn't use the time efficiently. I was too foolish not to even care about my health. *coughcough err.. this illness still won't go away.
I was really stressed out in the last 3 days of my holiday for being sick because actually I still have some stuffs I want to do. Moreover, 2012 is coming and I think I've got to do something special to make this as a precious memory to be remembered. However, it wasn't quiet what I expected...
In the last 3 days my cousins and relatives have to go back to their hometown, my friends are minding their own new year celebrations, I got to do a 9 hours of private photography lessons, I was sick, and the worse part is that on the next morning after the new year eve, I got to start heading my way to the airport in Jakarta and go back to Doha on the evening. Awesome right?
no ...
and you know what? my parents weren't even care enough to feel what I was moaning about when I had to go for the photography lesson. I bet they thought I was too lazy to wake up on the top of the morning & preparing to have some stuffs to be learn. Miss perception ... I wasn't feeling really well, I was feeling so lonely and I had to go back to the place I don't want to be, in just a few days. I'm being honestly frank here. Because in my real life, I just don't want them to hear what my true feeling is. I expect them to understand it themselves. I can understand my feeling fully, but I'm horrible at communicating it, that's why I can be easily stressed out.
Overall, I respect my parents, I love them. But, these hard times are ruining our understanding towards each other.
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On the new year eve at about 9:30 PM I was staring at my computer, trying to find my life, searching for some smiles, calling out what I call friends. I was hardly trying to create a precious moment. even in just a virtual way.
My parents called out my name to go off to bed because tomorrow we had to wake up at 6 O'clock in the morning and heading to Jakarta.
I resist.
at 10 O'clock, I turned on the TV, sitting on the couch, listening to the fireworks outside, staring on the screen and had my mind trying to understand my situation. "I can feel the crowd outside but I'm still trapped in this isolated house"
aku pasrah pada keadaan.
at 11 O'clock, my dad went out from his room and ask me to accompany him to go to the boardinghouse he & my relatives were constructing. I just nod and followed him. The boardinghouse were just 50 meters away from my house. When I got there, I was busy taking photo of the fireworks at the third floor. Then my father told me to got even higher to the rooftop. I took a step towards the stairs and surprisingly, the view was outstanding there. I can see the whole city view up there from the west Bandung area all the way to Lembang. Furthermore, there are a lot of people gathering around on the rooftop, most of them are workers who build this boardinghouse but there are also some people from neighborhood. It was such an unforgettable moment. I would call it the last gift of this new year eve.
These are some of those great moment I captured:
Little Houses at Night (Bandung, Indonesia)
Feel the Fire
Firework in Indo
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oh yeah, I found this really cool website
http://www.moninavelarde.com/newyears/
basically, it will give you some ideas for your resolutions for this new year, 2012. Give it a try
I've got 3 resolutions:
- courageous
- declutter
- available
I'll take those as tips to reorganize my life :)
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There is a BIG exam I'm going to face in about 5 months. It's an IGCSE exam from Cambridge. When I heard about it ... it seems impossible.
I've got some supports from my family, friends and relatives. Thank you.
aku akan melakukan yang terbaik dan semoga aku mendapatkan yang terbaik :)
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the time is now rushing without stopping, while I'm still sitting and just day dreaming.
the sun has rise too high behind the clouds, while I'm still sleeping avoiding the crowds.
see ya next time, sob
